That Crazy Moon

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They say that the full moon brings out the crazies. There might be something in that. I recently had a go at editing a video for upload on my YouTube channel, which has feck all subscribers, so if I made a mess of it I wouldn’t make to much of a fool of myself, or garner too many negative comments. How wrong can you be?

The video itself got very few views, so little in the way of negative comments, since it didn’t exactly take YouTube by storm. No, it was me, myself and I that got all the comments, from one quite harsh critic, called Stacey Ann Hightower. Except she’s not called that at the moment. It changes a lot more often than her mood, which usually stays in the angry zone, unsurprisingly, since she has been a satellite planet in the pull of the exploding supernova known as the Denise Matteau channel. While she’s been flung off course by the explosion of Denise Matteau‘s main channel, shut down by repeated strikes for bullying and harassment, she has decided to reinvent herself and attach herself to the orbit of what she sees as up-and-coming stars that were circling in the same orbits in YouTube. She’s pretty deluded if she thinks that’s me, but in the crazy light of the moon, the lunatics dance and the keyboard campaigns of hatred are launched like rockets (too heavy with the confused astral metaphors, you think?).

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So anyhow, Stacey Ann Hightower, who used to be Neon Flux, and has again changed her name, this time to Donna Syko Emerald, for posting slander about me in various comment sections where nobody really gives a d*mn about either of us, or has any idea who we even are, has been wearing herself ragged trying to persuade people in the ‘Truther Community’ on YouTube that myself and another guy called Aaron have been stalking herself and Denise Matteau, and are out to kill herself and her family. Crazy stuff, and there’s more; we are convicted pedophiles as well, it seems.

Not quite sure where her evidence is for any of the outrageous allegations, but that’s the kind of thing crazies get up to with their keyboards when the moon shines in their window. Or when they’re not busy doing another beer run at the local off-license or issuing their own death threats.

Part of what triggered her was the fact that when she used to be the YouTuber known as Neon Flux I wrote a post here which included her, and also featured her friend and ours, Denise Matteau. I was never a member of what Denise liked to think of as her little ‘Family’, but she and Neon were good buddies. Used to Email each other everyday, with all sorts of schemes and dreams constantly on the boil. Neon still uses Denise’s name as her own at times, she’s that big a fan.

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Stacey Ann Hightower/ No Name/Denise Matteau Here commenting on ‘Donna’s Moon Story’ video

Shame Denise went off her, when she realised that Neon might be more of an liability to the survival of her channel than an asset, and when the pot threatened to boil over, Denise spilled the beans on Neon, and burned her rather badly, divulging her personal details in videos, and reading out Emails Neon had sent her. Here’s a reposting of a video of a special reading Denise did from Neon’s Emails, that’s now gone the way of Denise’s main channel.

After Denise jettisoned Neon publicly, Neon threatened to sue her, and Denise then put around the story that Neon was working with me, Donna the professional killer (long story), and Aaron Cross, AKA Montagraph, ‘the pedophile’, and child killer, according to herself, as we had been public enemies for quite a while, me, for having dared to do a blog post about Denise’s life, which she had already splashed all over the internet herself, and Aaron, because she thought he was Montagraph, who can’t stand her either, since that time she said he was a pedo, and whipped her subscribers into a frenzy of hatred against him (whew, that sentence was longer than Proust, though it didn’t have as much literary style, I gotta admit). Wild stuff, but there were other thoroughly nutty people in Denise’s orbit who still believe this version of The Truth, and are rumbling out their convoy of lies around the various channels, trying to drum up a ‘crew’ to harass the so-called ‘trolls’.

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Aww. De poa hurty wurty feewings when yo fweend wont twoll foa yo.

NeedAHugThe whole thread on this video became funny when Delphi wanted to have a beauty contest with me, in an attempt to get me to ‘out’ my real-life identity.  Wanted me to slug it out back on her horse channel. I posted a picture of myself looking my very best, since I just couldn’t get her off my back any other way. She hasn’t a chance against this fine thing.

ComputerSaysNoInterestingly enough, just the week before she posted on the thread Delphi had been back on her own channel telling people she was being ‘stocked’, and was back in Denise’s good graces, working with her to resolve the Aaron problem. She told her friend she would Email. She’s good at staying in touch with people.Despite the fact that she avoids the internet like the plague.

Seems Delphi was creating her story and making sure it stuck long before she arrived on the YouTubeStory2Chinada3 video to cause trouble. She is currently telling her subscribers that she will be offline, and they are all getting concerned, and asking if she is OK. The finger will be no doubt pointed in Aaron and myself’s direction when she makes her next video. Maybe she is hoping she will impress Denise with her stocking skillz.

As for our old friend Neon, she’s had a rough time over at my Donna’s Moon Story video. Click the video above, and select View on YouTube, if you want to see the comments, but believe me, you are going to learn some new phrases that I hope you will never need to use yourself in your daily life. Be sure to expand the Comments Button To Sort By Newest first, as shown here.

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ExpandShe’s currently sleeping it off, though I seriously doubt she will rethink her attitudes when the sun comes up on a new day.

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Update: You know my remarks about how to access Stacy/Neon’s nasty remarks on my video comment section? Well, ignore them, because she has removed them. I know you are probably driven mad with curiosity to see what was said before she passed out from emotional overload, or overload of something or other anyway, so I will post them here below. I’m putting them below the following book quote, in case you want to think over whether you want to look at something this yukky, so be warned.

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A History of Madness in Sixteenth-century Germany
By H. C. Erik Midelfort Stanford University Press.

Stacey thought if she just kept repeating the allegations somebody would believe them, and she could drag as many personal enemies and allegations into the stalker ring conspiracy as possible by going big on the lie. She had seen that this technique often worked for Denise, because they got the idea about our being stalkers and all the other horrible things from Denise, and believed them. Or just wanted everyone else to believe them, because they hated us for what they saw as a group of people working together to try to break up their Family cult, sorry, emmmm….cosy fellowship, of them against the world. And as if we didn’t get the message that she wanted us to know that she was still bestest buds with Denise, this comment was next.

It’s a bit confused, and the plot isn’t consistent, but confusion just adds to the whole conspiracy, dontcha think? Kindof a ‘Well, you must be over the target, because people seem to be getting annoyed’ school of logic, that so many deluded, what are now colloquially known as ‘Qtards‘ seem to use to make decisions when arriving at ‘The Truth‘. Stacey was determined to carry on with whatever bs she was trying to sell despite anything I said to the contrary. My version wasn’t as exciting, of course. It was just a standard response one makes when they’ve been threatened with a throat slitting (see comment above my drunk video at top of this page).

It went on and on. I got bored. I won’t bore you further. It was more of the same, with several name changes along the way. Currently, she’s Donna Psycho Emerald on this channel, where she carries on with inept trolling by making playlists, and Photoshopping a hat on my profile picture. Oh well, keeps her off the streets, I suppose. And her 10 subscribers, which I suspect are all her. Until she has to go out for more beer. She’s bound to be thirsty after all that hard work. Still, hard work never killed anyone, as they say, and it’s done wonders for her creativity, as she’s coming up with cute playlist names like ‘Donna Emerald the truth of her t3rror1sm‘ and ‘Aaron Cross stalker of women, offender of children‘. I like the hat, too.

Oh well, let’s leave them to their astral madness; seems that people will go on believing what they want to believe and turn their faces from the light of intelligence, to continue bathing in moon madness.

My New Job, and a Meeting With Mr. Mesmer

I just got a new job, which I am pretty excited about. For some strange reason I couldn’t get along with anyone in the last post, and the job before that too. They wouldn’t even give me a reference, but I told my new boss I was disabled, and they would be discriminating against someone with a learning disability, Tourette’s Syndrome, and a mixed black heritage, and they gave me the job, ‘cos I threatened to sue. It would be a cushy number, if it weren’t for the people I have to meet. God, how I hate people. All my experiences with them are very odd indeed. What’s their bloody issue? Now f$ck off, and stop bothering me. Can’t you see I’m on my break?

 

Night of the Hunter – Scary Classic Movie To Liven up Your Tuesday

Robert Mitchum is the biz. Cool, collected, and scary. Don’t let your kids stay up late to watch this one. They won’t sleep for weeks if they do.

Here’s the trailer for ‘The Night Of The Hunter‘,  directed by the great Charles Laughton, (no slouch in the acting department either), in which Mitchum plays a killer on the hunt for a new victim.

Click here to see the full movie.

Bonus clips: The cast talk about the movie.

Another killer role for Robert Mitchum; ‘Cape Fear’, 1962.

Biography of Robert Mitchum, ‘The Reluctant Star’.

 

 

 

From Me To You, With Love

You know, you can be very annoying but I’m kinda fond of you. Guess you could say it’s a love/hate relationship. I love all the fun you have brought into my life; meeting a few new people who have turned out to be pretty nice, finding out new things, getting involved in new avenues of discovery; all the stuff that a relationship with another human being brings. You hate me, but that’s OK. I get it; I can be irritating too, and I don’t always go along with what you want, when you want it. A lot of people find me a bit like that, and you wouldn’t be the first one that was driven mad by it. But on some matters I wish you would lighten up a bit. The world is not filled with trolls, all out to get you, and it’s not really a them or us situation; it’s all us. We’re all human. And when you are calling others trolls, you are risking looking more like a troll yourself.

It’s pretty infuriating sometimes, and I have to write it all down, or tell people about it, to keep it straight in my head. The poison threatens to infect me, and turn me into a bitter troll sometimes. It’s hard to stay nice, and tempting to become a nasty mean old troll, but I remind myself that there are rewards for being nice, like looking in the mirror in the morning, and not hating who you are; even if you don’t look as pretty on the outside as you would wish, you know that you are beautiful on the inside, and maybe the beauty will shine out, and make other people as happy as you are yourself. There’s nothing as good as making someone smile. Maybe it’s a bit sickening, but the guy with the typewriter gets it, and lots of other people do, and that makes me feel very good about life, and living.

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Nobody wants you to suffer, nobody has planned it, and it is only the truly ignorant and lost who are made happy by the suffering of others; perhaps in the short term, there’s a satisfaction, but the slow soul rot that results will eventually turn up in your eyes someday when you look in your mirror, and you will find it very hard to live with yourself.

So accept that you are not perfect; after all, others can accept themselves as they are, warts and all, so how bad can you be really? Maybe you have just set your standards too high, above the rest of us ordinary folk. You are not special, in anything but being human. And in the human spirit, I wish you love now, and happiness, even if you don’t want it from me. At least take it from yourself. Life isn’t so very long, and you deserve happiness, just as everyone does. Join the human race, and enjoy the music.
Love
Donna

Pandora’s Box

Louise Brooks. starring in Pandora’s Box 1929

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I looked like this when I was younger. Or had the same hairdo (Shingle Bob). Wiki Commons image

I present tonight for your mild amusement a 1986 BBC documentary, in which the once beautiful, and still intelligent (well, not outside this documentary, as the lady is now deceased) Ms. Brooks tells the fascinating story of her Hollywood career, and details events in the making of Pandora’s Box, which, though later it became a classic, didn’t get good reviews on its release in 1929. This, despite the fact that the story had had many successes already on stage and film, with the Danish star of another version of the movie, Asta Neilson, playing the heroine, Lulu. We could nickname her Loopy Lulu, as her love life seems a bit out of whack, to say the least. I don’t wish to spoil the plot entirely for you, but Jack the Ripper enters into it towards the end. Talk about a plot twist! It’s a pretty dark plot all round, and the absence of dialogue just adds to atmosphere. Let Ms. Brooks tell the story first; she is a great yacker, and can tell it well.

 

I can’t find footage of Asta Neilson in Earth Spirit, so you’ll have to settle for her doing her Hamlet act instead. Here’s a nifty little clip of that. It’s a bit, well, faggy, frankly, but maybe it’s just me that thinks that Hamlet may have been a bit of an Emo (and no, Neon [also now deceased, but doing a Banquo’s ghost on it, but I digress] I’m not an Emo, probably I’m more of a Neko, if anything at all), but not necessarily gay as such. Who knows, if a Hamlet without any talking is a thing, gayness without gayness might be too. Projector, please!

Who cares, except as it’s relevant to giving good Shakespeare. Here, have some Laurence, who gives great Shakespeare.

And for comparative purposes, the same soliloquy given by Richard Harris, who, although going down the drama queen route some, is delivering the goods in a much more robust fashion, partly because he has to emote loudly enough so those in the cheap seats can hear every syllable.

I’ve been yakking too much, I know. Aw, shaddup already, I hear you say (I hear voices so frequently these days).  A bit of silence would be a relief at this stage. Zip.

Extras: Here’s some nice alternative atmospheric music you can open up in another window if you don’t like the original score.Catgirltweet

My Fantasies

I love listening to classical music. It can bring you to the most wonderful places in your imagination. Disney’s masterful feature animation ‘Fantasia‘ visits a good few of these places, and how gloriously imaginative is the music of the great composers like Modest Mussorgsky, whose ‘Night On Bald Mountain‘  provides a ‘musical picture’ on the theme of a St. John’s Night Witches Sabbath. Disney caught the menace in the music perfectly in the imagery and movement of the animated spectres and spooks of darkness.

Loving it as much as I am? I hope so, because this movie certainly made classical music accessible to its audience in 1940, as I hope it will for you too, if you aren’t already a classical music fan. If you fancy listening to some more, with a change in tempo, here’s some more of the magic of Disney. Ludvig van Beethoven does depressed and moody awfully well, but the Pastoral Symphony (Opus no. 68 ) is one of his sweeter, happier works.

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Beethoven’s Symphony no. 6 (Pastoral) script

Disney’s images to accompany the music are charming and sweet too. The following video features two versions of the same footage alongside each other for comparison. If you are the sort of person who likes fiddling about with reading the sleeve of the album cover too while listening, I can’t help you out, but I can provide a link to an analysis of some of the metaphors and mythological references that abound in the movie.

Satyr With A Pipe

Well, that was fun, wasn’t it? Let’s make it a night, settle down and relax in style like a satyr, pull up a log and grab a pipe to blow bubbles in order to not-think better, kick the shoes off to let the hooves breathe,  and enjoy taking a nice trip with these cute little mushrooms, who like dancing around to the Nutcracker Suite by llyich Tchaikovsky.

Is This America?

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Childish by badjonni flickr. Chet reproduced by Kristine flickr.

Have you seen Childish Gambino‘s ‘This is America‘ music video yet? It’s full of metaphors and works well as a piece of video art, as well as it does in a musical sense (if you are into that kind of thing  (mellow, funk or classical is more my vibe). But its  meaning is ambiguous, and may also have layers of meanings not accessible to the conscious mind at first viewing. Some good videos have been made which discuss possible meanings in the video. I thought you might like to have a look, if you have not already come across this song. Even if you have, it’s worth having another look with the analysis afterwards.

Decide for yourself; is it mainly a black/racism theme, a violence/gun theme, a gang theme, a mass-media culture/semiotics theme; maybe a political left/right theme, or all of the above, perhaps most, or what else? Part of the video’s power is that it doesn’t provide the answers for us. And that’s not a bad partial definition of art itself, which, as Picasso once said, tends to ‘elude investigation‘.

If you found your poor nerves jangled after all that tension and post-postmodern anxiety that is the staple emotional state involved in modern American culture, maybe I could suggest a soothing antidote. It’s more of a blue pill than a red one,  a musical biographical movie that features sadness, drugs and angst, along with the sublime trumpet playing of Chet Baker. And you won’t get lost in the plot.

Are you a classical nerd? Quick quiz, then. Name the following tune.