The people that brought youQare keeping the life support campaign going, and the patient seems to be still alive, and reviving from the recent coma, induced by the recent collision with reality. Q is up and about again, and getting legs it seems.
Voices of dissent are being heard, and a new conversation is starting, on issues that weren’t disscussed while the topic of Q was still the trendist thing around, and the only thing anyone could see. Some are rushing out to join the frey, like Annie Get Your Gun, singin’ ‘Anything You Can Do, I Can Do Better’, a few others are sitting by the patient’s bed, and some are chatting away to other folks in the hallways while the patient’s diapers and bedsheets are getting changed.
It’s a difficult conversation. Some folks in it aren’t sure what each other’s relationship to the patient actually is, and there is debate about whether Q will be the same person at all when he’s fully recovered; will he be a shadow of his former self, or a new man altogether? Only time will tell, and the time window for full recovery seems to be narrowing all the time. At least all Q’s friends and foes got to meet at last; even if it wasn’t pretty, it’s good to talk.
Anyone who has been following earlier posts on this blog will be familiar with the topic of YouTube trolling, because I’ve written several posts by now on the subject, which kicked off from a post called Denis The Menace Strikes Again. Seems this post upset some people, and later poststhat followed on from the same topic resulted in a veritable gaggle of trolls taking wing to protest that I was in fact the troll, in part due to the fact that I was creating more posts on the subject, which has been a hot topic in media news, since efforts are being made to curtail the activities of online bullies, with related debates emerging about the existing legal structures in place to deal with online harassment, particularly around whether the laws in place are robust enough currently to effectively combat what the mainstream media are saying is a growing phenomenon.
How much of this is mainstream propaganda, and how much is statistically reliable information I just don’t know for sure, but I have certainly experienced my fair share of trolling while hanging out in YouTube, initiated by my initial meeting with Denise Matteau, via the Truth Convoy YouTube channel, one of several channels I’m subscribed to. Yes, I get right up Denise’s nose, not just for the blog posts, but for other qualities as well, including ones I thought weren’t so bad, like being nice to people I meet on YouTube. Some of the more criminal allegations are discussed in this livestream I held on the 23rd June, specifically so anyone could drop over and discuss them in chat, or ask me questions etc. As it happened, only ‘friendlies’ turned up, and we had a chat to compare notes and for me to tell my version of the story, which for those who don’t know, and never got to see any of Denise’s now removed videos, runs along the lines I describe in the livestream. The story currently is that I am in a stalker gang, cyber-bullying Denise, and this gang killed her daughter and is trying to ruin her online business. We also want to arrange some kind of rounding up of people (sorry, but I still can’t figure out who) so that we can burn them in a Waco-style event!
I can’t find a Truth Convoy video that sums up all the allegations of criminality succintly, but you can get a flavour of what Denise says is happening here. Good luck following the story if you are not up to date on it already, but this video contains some of her current theories about the troll network.
I’ve tried to laugh off some of her personal criticisms of me, some clips remain in this video:
But, the criminal allegations, I thought, deserved a longer response. So here it is, for what it’s worth (and I doubt it’s worth consideration in Denise’s mind, but anyhoo). Helpful hint: click on the YouTube icon at bottom right to view on YouTube, to see the chat area as well as the video.
Chinada got in on the act as well, making out he hadn’t watched my livestream (and maybe he hadn’t – why bother with facts, when you can just jump to conclusions, ‘cos a sweet old lady told you a story about all the trolls that are targeting her, killed her daughter, and are part of a left-wing multi-channel YouTube troll mob who are planning a new Waco style inferno? He had things to say to me in his comment section when I asked him to let Denise know I was doing a livestream, where people could drop over and ask questions, or make comments.
Further sallies ensued.
The self-appointed Sherrif of YouTube (Chinada3) went on to make a video which earned him the nickname Trigger from me, as he seemed a little triggered, to say the least, by the fact that he got doxed by Wynter Moon, live in LTV’s livestream, where Wynter and myself were in chat. Me, talking about chocolate with someone, and Wynter busily doxing the heck out of Chinada.
Well, you can imagine the confusion that ensued when he couldn’t remember who was the doxer. He had to ask the ‘Queen of Trolls’, Denise’s moniker for little ol’ me, who did the dirty on him, and I had to go into explanations again. Why he couldn’t just watch his own video again to find out, I’ll never know, but that’s how strong emotion works, isn’t it? Bypasses the logic centres at times.
Things got worse for poor ol’ Trigger. Montagraph, who the little Sheriff had been threatening to dox, got involved, and more videos resulted. Like this one, which basically seemed to be implying that the Sheriff is a big girl’s blouse.
The video seemed to be partly a response to these comments by Montagraph on Chinada3’s ill-thought out approach to kiss and make up time with Monty, which was to start calling him Sir in his video titles, and ask if they could make videos together.
No sloppy kisses had to be witnessed, just a bit of an ugly scene, because once Montagraph says he’s gonna do something, it’s very hard to turn the horse around to get it back in the barn, and any sheriff who runs out of caps for his popgun would do better to stay on the horse, and get the heck out of town at a gallop. Trigger understandably got a bit depressed about videos like this one. And the fact he’s thinking of getting out of town for a while, and maybe trying to get a sheriff’s badge over at Twitch. With a hundred GoFundMe bucks in one’s chaparreras a guy can buy oats for the horse and flop for a few nights, or just head out in the desert and stare at the stars, or share beans with other cowboys.
Apart from making sure he’s calling Montagraph Sir, Chinada seems to be generally trying to turn over a new leaf, and after I expressed sympathy for his doxing, dropped by to leave this comment under my livestream video.
Bonus material: The drama triangle (Steve Karpman) and the winner’s triangle (Acey Choy) theories explained.
Fitzcarraldo is a Werner Herzogmovie made in 1982, about a rubber baron called Brian Sweeney Fitzgerald, who decides to build an opera house smack in the middle of a Peruvian Jungle. It’s a highly improbable story, unless you know that’s it’s based on fact. Little tip to bear in mind, Fitzcarraldo was an Irish guy, and they do mad well. Here’s a trailer to give you a little appetiser.
Find out how he got on in his amazing adventure and struggles with obstacles the natural environment presented along the way; at one point he has to find a way to get a very large boat over a pretty big mountain, and solves the problem the only way he can find, which is, of course the hard way! The quality of the version I found online isn’t great, but if you love adventure, and inspirational stories about stubborn people who don’t take no for an answer, this is one for you. The movie is in two parts, which are both available here:
There was also a fascinating documentary made about the making of the film, also from 1982, which you can find here:
An interesting chat on Irish radio with Sean O’Rourke, about social media, and the growing campaign to persuade people to engage less online. Is it a good idea, or just another manipulation tactic, by a group with vested interests in shutting down discourse?
Call me the suspicious type, but I know in the business world leopards don’t stop being spotty overnight, even if they are living in a different habitat, or eating their prey off a different patch of ground. The protestations are as hard to swallow as when an antelope horn goes down one’s gullet sideways. This guy.
And this guy.
And, of course, this guy.
OK, lads. We hear you, and we’ll get back to you on it. Maybe stick a post up, tweet you, make a video, whatever. We won’t ring you though, ‘cos we know your phone is off.
Recently I’ve been looking through some of my favourite film clips, and YouTube is a great place to relive favourite movie moments, as it’s choc-a-bloc with delightful fragments that allow you to revisit some of the moments that stick in your mind from movies you’ve watched in the past. Some of the short clips seemed to suggest little stories to me, and of course YouTube allows you to create and upload your own video mash-ups, so I thought I’d enjoy putting my own mashed-up imagination to work in telling a story of my own. It didn’t have the same narrative elements as the original movies, because in choosing small moments and editing them together something different is bound to happen, and the short format (under 4 minutes each) meant that the two clips I came up with as a result of using a free-association technique to link ideas meant that the results were impressionistic and more ambiguous than a full-length movie would allow for.
The limitations imposed by what clips were available to me dictated the story told, as least as much as the length of time to tell the story in did. One idea suggested to me by the clips I was looking at was the theme of the moon, and I used this as a glue to hold the pieces together, so ideas didn’t fly off in too many directions at once. I’m gonna talk about some of the metaphors suggested in the visuals, but I’d prefer to let you see the first video before I talk about them, because I don’t want to pollute your experience of watching it by pointing out what it’s about. It’s open to interpretation, and the viewer decides what to bring to the story, as much as the story-teller does. So here goes; the first part of me likkle diptych is called Donna’s Moon Story.
It’s terribly flawed in lots of ways, rough around the edges, quite literally, since I didn’t get my aspect ratiosright, resulting in the black borders producing a frame, and the Windows Movie Maker software I used crashed every time I tried to apply transitions to smoothen the ragged joins between clips. However, that’s another story, and maybe the raw, abrupt quality that resulted suited the raw energy of the subject matter, which, though I wasn’t aware of it as I was making it, resulted in a nightmare dream theme emerging. The borders turned out to be a lucky mistake too, as they give a voyeuristic, peering through a letterbox, dissasociated feeling to the scenes.
I decided, when I looked at it afterwards, that it was a nightmare of sorts. It surprised me, in that I hadn’t initially set out to represent a dream, but of course the moon will produce dreams, not all of them wholesome or peaceful, and the music I found in the copyright-free music section of YouTube’s Creator Studio, now unfortunately missing the transition tools it apparently once had, provided a hammer-like soundtrack which, I thought, added to the menacing, uncomfortable quality of the visuals. Short scenes and quick cuts were used to keep the pace insistent and add to the anxious atmosphere. Sexuality is an obvious theme, as it was in the original movies the clips are taken from, and violence seems immanent. Carnality is a main theme in the video, in case you didn’t spot it already ha ha.
The eyeball-slashing moment was one that had always been unbearable for me to watch whenever I see Luis Bunuel’s ‘Un Chien Andelou’, and I felt it’s uncensored version was too jolting and repulsive to include in the mash-up, as it would destroy the dream-like quality too much, so I applied a filter to the short scene, (luckily, filters are still a thing in the Creator’s Studio), and also used filters on the last two ‘scenes’, though they are clips so short I can hardly bring myself to call them that. The woman’s screaming face at the end was far more effective as a result of the filter, but I was frustrated that I couldn’t fade the filters slightly on the eyeball scene, as the intensity of the filter obscures the climax of the video a bit too much, I think, for the intensity of shock I was aiming for. The abruptness of the ending implies the sleeper awaking from a nightmare produced from the depths of their unconscious.
The second video in the diptych is also a dreamscape, but a more pleasant one by far. The theme of female sexuality is in contrast to the male energies that run through the first piece. Can you spot the moment when orgasm happens?
I headed straight back down the stairs into the unconscious for this second story, as the staircase with the shadow moving across it suggests at the beginning, and the footage of the swimming pool, taken from the classic horror movie, ‘Cat People’, combined with the cave entrance shot (female body part symbolism, anyone?) creates, hopefully anyway, a sense of anticipation, which resolves into some kind of clarity of theme only towards the end, when the kiss over the abyss happens. From then on the dreamer continues the dream in a state of sexual arousal, with the climax occurring at the red star explosion, followed by the slow turning wave at the end. The male body features in the way that the female body does in the first, except that it is integrated with nature, unlike the first piece, where the female body is mechanical and distanced from the natural world, and it is the male energy which is in touch with the cycle of nature, under the gaze of the moon.
Of course, the materials I had to work with are masterpieces of cinema, and if you have not seen or heard of some of these movies already, I recommend that you give them a go. if you didn’t much enjoy my little movies, there’s sure to be something in here you like. Here are some links to help you find the movies.
Tonight’s big movie is a Kubrick horror masterpiece, The Shining. Even if you are not a big horror fan, there’s lots here to delight the eye and the mind. The cinematography is superb, with the subtle use of a fisheye lens emphasises the immense empty spaces of the hotel interiors sucking you into the action. Jack Nicholson as wonderful as the hotel’s new off-season caretaker, who brings his family to the remote location with plans to write a book. Things take, let’s say, an unusual turn for the worse. I was lucky enough to see this one on the big screen when it first came out, and have watched it several times since, always discovering new things. I have included a short documentary feature about the movie as a bonus.
I hope you enjoy the horror as much as I did! Click on the image to be brought to the movie site with your no registration, front row seat waiting.
Finally, I just want to give a shout-out to some wonderful people I had the honour to attend a party with tonight. Well, it was more a work-related gig, to be honest; I was playing barman for the night, over at one of my favourite bars, the Hoax Wars Defamation League. It turned out to be a whole lot of fun and laughs, and I got top tips from this guy, Delbert Grady, that really helped me and everyone else have a good night.
I trust that the hangovers won’t too bad tomorrow, folks. Cocktails have a lot of vitamins in them, and a laugh does everybody some good. People should do it as often as possible. Life is not as scary and threatening as it may seem in the darkness of the movie theatre, when you are lost in the magic of the big show.
So the channel once known as Defango, then morphing into the cola-light version called MortDefango for livestreams, has finally reached the end-point of becoming defunct-o. This dramatic livestream was broadcast on YouTube a few days ago, and Defango announced that his livestreaming privilages, which were such an integral part of his channel’s content, were being revoked, and this was to be his last ever livestream.
This bombshell came after weeks of trouble over the Q thing, which culminated in the ‘exposure’ of the Cicada puzzle makers and the Q team on Defango’s, among others’ channels.
Defango revealed to his fascinated subscribers that he would be revealing all, and was expecting to be taking a lot of flack for it, but that he didn’t like the direction the whole thing had gone in, when it was meant to be a consciousness-raising exercise for the YouTube Truthers.
We don’t all have a 140 IQ, like Defango, but presumably the Plebians could do with being enlightened a little, and the way to do that included being a bit creative with the truth it seems.
So what about all those times we sat with Defango, while he solved Cicada clues, puffing away on his vaper like the caterpillar in Alice in Wonderland, chugging back his giant slurpies and assuring us that his puzzle-solving skillz were the best out there ‘cos 140 guys, OK? Did he have the slight advantage of being quick at solving them because he helped write them, as he later admitted in his videos?
Oh well, Cicada wasn’t a big waste of time, in lots of people’s minds. I liked watching the solving videos for the techie stuff, as Defango used some apps I wasn’t even aware were out there, and certainly had never used myself. It had some cool graphics too, and lots of esoteric references done in a visual way, that were interesting.
The puzzles were filled with lots of biblical ramblings, which didn’t appeal much to me, but there was something for everyone, including fortune-cookie readings a la I Ching daily horoscopes from Mystic D for the new-agers, as well as stuff aimed at the teenagers gaming in the basement for hours on end, with tedious semi-chivalric Assassins-Creed references, to glass-bead game level philosophical navel-gazings. It was a soup-kitchen of sorts for the soul, with all welcome.
When Q blew up in people’s faces, with the identity of the Q person or persons still not definitely established, the word LARP came up more and more regularly, and the conversation naturally started turning to debates over who were the biggest larpers in this corner of YouTube. Names like our old friend Denise‘s came up, as well as Jerome Corsi, Montagraph and others that had been around the block enough times, or have enough experience to know how to organise a good larp, but of course many ages and at least a few different skill sets were made use of in the effort to market the Q larp as a popular thing with various demographic groups.
Awww, don’t blame it all on the oldies Chinada; some of us aren’t ready to consign them to their mobility scooters for the rest of their days yet. I love seeing them on YouTube, although perhaps some of them, as can also be the case with younger people, are a bit too smart for their own good, and end up tying themselves in knots. Correct me if I am wrong, but some of your video comments suggest that you are not above forming alliances with some of the oldies yourself, even if you don’t always want to admit it. These comments from two of your video channels strike me as a bit of a reality mis-match, date wise, since two weeks after Denise Matteau was Emailing you (Truth Convoy commenter), you were saying you didn’t know the lady, and now you are sticking up for her like a hero, defending her against those nasty trolls. LARP, anyone? This logical lad argues that if someone has trolls, they must be OK. You see, this younger generation really leave the oldies in the shade when it comes to the thinking department. No wonder Denise wanted to befriend him.
Many believe in the idea of cosmic Karma, which I get, but I tend to think of it more as a lying is not such a good idea kind of situation. Poor Denise is having a horrible time at the moment, partly perhaps, because people object to the level of creativity with the truth that her various channels engaged in. How ironic that the truth movement keeps having these issues with the truth constantly.
I dare say Defango is still feeling a little misty-eyed over the whole YouTube livestreaming thing, and the trouble that the Cicada puzzle and Q caused, but he’ll get over it. In fact, he probably has already, since he has miraculously regained his ability to stream on YouTube. Must be the power of prayer. At least someone is still in his corner.
Depression is no joke. The challenge is to not lose faith in yourself, or in others. As REM say, ‘life is bigger, it’s bigger than you’. That’s a thought that cheers me, and you have your religion Defango, so don’t lose that, if it’s what gets you through. With me it’s just life, and people, and yet, even the hurt is a part of what makes life wonderful.
Everybody hurts, some just have more trouble in their minds than others, and think everything is turning to rot in their hands, when it’s just the usual little bits of poo that life tends to fling your way from time to time.
Seems Jethro’s apology has disappeared from our ‘special moment together’ tweet, so the tweets look a bit strange and one-sided. Like Defango, s/he has said nasty things to me, then blocked me. My apology still stands of course, I don’t regret sympathising with someone, nor do I regret being human enough to feel angry when they throw my sympathy back in my face. Being nice doesn’t have to include being a doormat, or not telling someone when their behaviour is crossing your boundaries.
My tweets that earned such displeasure.
Don't do anything dopey Defango. The world could be completely different in a few hours. Things can change that fast. Think of all the people in your life who you would f*ck up permanently by doing something rash. Dig deep, and ride the emotional waves, and you will emerge anew.
Hi Defango. I hope you are in a slightly better frame of mind today, and things don't seem quite as bleak. Everybody was worried about you, and a lot of people appreciate you being in their lives. Don't forget that.
(Defango’s shit-eating reply tweet, like Jethro’s, was deleted)
Defango has a long way to go in the trolling department, if he wants to keep up with the oldies, however. They have been at it so much longer. Here’s a Denise Facebook post from 2016, where she is trolling an abuse survivor, who then points out the phenomenon I’ve observed, and call the reverse-troll maneuver; blame others for trolling you, while being the biggest troll out there. She will always be the queen of trolls in my eyes. First, one of her current comments, from a Chinada3 video.
Is it terrible of me that I’m kind of flattered? A Deprogrammed Mind wasn’t so flattered by this comment:
Chinada is now criticizing myself, Wynter Moon and Aaron Cross, for standing up for ourselves against Denise and her trolls. Oh well, if you don’t do the research, and jump to conclusions, it’s easy to fall for the ploy. And Denise is so good at organising chaos.
Updates: Bet you’re dying to know what’s happening with Defango and Denise since the events discussed above, like what Denise’s current version of her ever-changing and evolving stalker conspiracy theory is, or what steps Defango took to restore his loving giant reputation.
As for Defango, he was last seen licking Montagraph’s boots (metaphorically) in apology for their falling-outs, and writing Emails to both Monty, and Dave Acton, the YouTube legal eagle-eye (‘Hi, it’s Dave’), to get his help on the legal whatnots needed to extricate himself from a delicate situation.
Defango’s Apology Letter to Montagraph.
Denise is currently singing Chinada3’s praises, but who knows how long he will remain in the top spot as her Golden Boy and all round knight-in-shining-armour? Time will tell, and it probably won’t be long before the next round of drama hits the YouTube fan. Click the text link to read more on the latest Denise items of interest here.Sorry to go on endlessly in this post, but that’s the YouTube drama department for you. And the truth can be pretty dramatic sometimes, you have to admit. Thank goodness there are Exit and Shut down buttons for when you need them, as well as a Startup when life gets dull!